I hardly know how to start writing this journal. Nobody reads this anyways so why bother yeah?

I find myself uninspired, annoyed, angry, bored... I want to get up and get back into the artsy mood but i don't..

I have no ideas, no muse, no nothing to base any of my art on other than pain, depression, neglect, rejection and solitude. And even these emotions that used to be art triggers for me don't even work anymore.

I have nothing..

I'm constantly sick and suffering all kinds of bodily aches.. headaches..stomachaches..backaches..

Tired of living and tired of not living at all..

I want my art back